I have lived in the eye of the storm—calm on the surface, chaos all around.
For years, I stood in the centre of intimidation, manipulation, and danger.
Now? I’m no longer in the eye.
I’m on the perimeter.
I’ve stepped outside the cyclone. I see it for what it is.
And from where I stand now, I’m no longer dizzy—I’m clear-headed, protected, and prepared.
🛡️ Vigilance is Not Paranoia—It’s Wisdom After Trauma
I started to feel safe again.
The doors were open. The breeze came in. I let myself breathe.
But sometimes trauma survivors learn the hard way: moments of peace are also when predators try to strike again.
That’s not on me. That’s on him.
So now, I return to vigilance—not with fear, but with purpose.
- My dog alerts me.
- My security system watches all angles.
- Cameras are hidden and active.
- Panic buttons are in place.
- And the Guardia Civil can be here in minutes—because they believe me. They understand the risk.
This time, he won’t slip through the cracks.
🧠 A Psychological Perspective: The Predator Mindset
What kind of person tries to drive someone out with fear?
Who returns to violate boundaries again and again, despite laws and warnings?
A person who is not just controlling—but believes control equals power.
Someone who thrives on making others shrink while he looms larger.
Someone who externalises blame, sees themselves as the “victim” in every scenario, and often hides behind charm or delusions of righteousness.
Psychologists call this a “coercive mindset.”
It’s driven by entitlement, narcissism, and emotional detachment from consequences.
They do not feel guilt in the ways most people do.
They enjoy the game—until the game ends.
🔄 The Cruel Irony of Denial
He has children.
He has grandchildren.
I wonder, often, how he would feel if they were living with their doors locked, blinds drawn, alarms armed, too afraid to sleep.
Would he still be amused?
Would he feel the same thrill if the fear he creates were directed at the people he claims to love?
But abusers often split the world in two: those they control, and those they charm.
They rely on enablers—family, friends, institutions—who excuse, minimise, or outright deny their behaviour.
Denial is powerful. But it does not protect the truth—it only delays it.
💬 The Psychology of Survival
Survivors are often labelled as “paranoid” when they return to hyper-vigilance.
But let me be clear:
It is not paranoia if there is a pattern of threat.
It is not paranoia when you’ve been right before.
Survivors learn to trust themselves deeply.
We sense danger before others see it.
We make backup plans no one else considers.
We don’t live in fear—we live in awareness.
And awareness is our shield.
🧘♀️ So Here’s the Truth:
I’m not going anywhere.
I’ve rebuilt myself piece by piece.
I’ve looked fear in the face and stood still.
Let the storm rage.
Let the lies be told.
Let the games continue in his mind.
I am safe.
I am seen.
And this time, the world is watching.
🔁 Share if you’ve ever had to rebuild your safety, your sanity, or your life after someone tried to destroy it. Survivors are not weak. We are warriors.
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