A Psychological and Legal Reflection from a Survivor

When people ask how I “proved” abuse after years of being told I was overreacting, difficult, or mentally unwell — here’s what I tell them:

I documented everything.
Not for revenge. Not to destroy anyone.
But to stay sane, to feel heard, and eventually — to seek justice.

📝 I wrote dated, timed letters.
📝 I kept notes on incidents that shook me to my core.
📝 I filed observations of the emotional, physical, and financial abuse I endured.
These letters weren’t meant for the courtroom at first — they were for survival.

But when the legal system needed to understand the full picture — those “Dear Paul” letters became evidence.

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👩‍⚖️ Building a Psychological Profile

At the request of my psychologist and lawyer, I compiled a report.
It included:

📍 17+ dated personal letters
📍 4 witness statements from family and friends who had witnessed the abuse
📍 Notes from my doctor in France advising me to go to the Gendarmes after two separate physical incidents
📍 Psychological reports from my trauma therapist documenting behavioral patterns and emotional manipulation
📍 Financial records showing clear patterns of control and exploitation

The words weren’t dramatic.
They were clear.
They were consistent.
And they told the story between the lines.
The one victims often can’t say out loud.

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🧠 From a Psychological Perspective

Abuse isn’t always a single incident.
It’s often a thousand small moments — silences, threats, contradictions, control, punishment, shame.
So when survivors document over time, we begin to see the emotional and behavioral patterns that define the abuser — and the survivor’s reality.

This kind of longitudinal documentation helps psychologists and legal teams:

✅ Identify consistent manipulation or gaslighting
✅ Spot repeated cycles of abuse (idealize > devalue > discard)
✅ Show the impact on the survivor’s mental and physical health
✅ Back up testimony with tangible evidence

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🧨 Gaslighting Doesn’t Always End When You Leave

One of the most disturbing things was hearing someone say to me:
“But you’ve been in Spain two years now, haven’t you? Health conditions change. I wouldn’t rely on that if I were you.”
And another:
“Any consultations should be private. They shouldn’t be admissible anyway.”

This is secondary gaslighting — invalidation from those who should support us.
But here’s the truth:

📌 Medical notes are documented facts.
📌 Psychological assessments are clinical observations.
📌 Witness statements are real voices.
📌 The truth does not expire because time has passed.

You don’t stop being a victim or survivor just because you changed countries or languages.
Trauma doesn’t respect borders.

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💪 Why This Matters

If you are in a relationship where you feel you’re constantly explaining, justifying, or apologizing — please start documenting.
Not because you’ll “have to go to court,” but because your voice matters.
Because your truth deserves to be protected.
Because one day, it might help another person understand theirs.

Write it down.
Save the files.
Print the letters.
Trust your gut.
You’re not crazy. You’re surviving.
And one day, you’ll be thriving.

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