💔 “How Many Years Had I Been Lied To?” – When Betrayal Hides in Plain Sight
“He preached honesty. He demanded truth. And all along, he was lying to me. From the beginning.
For over thirty years, I lived in a web of deception—carefully spun, layer by layer, until I couldn’t see it anymore.”
This isn’t just about infidelity or secretive behavior. This is about systematic betrayal—a relationship built on lies, while you were offering nothing but love, trust, and loyalty.
🧠The Psychology of the “Honest Liar”
When an abuser insists on honesty, transparency, or moral high ground, it’s often a tactic. Not to build trust—but to control the narrative. To put themselves in the role of the “good one” while you begin to doubt yourself more and more.
The truth? Someone who demands truth but withholds their own is not looking for honesty. They’re building a mask—and gaslighting you into believing it’s real.
🧩 Clues Were There—But They Were Hidden on Purpose
“Why did I never meet any of his old friends?”
“Why did his family always act like I didn’t quite belong?”
“Why did no one tell me the truth?”
Because they knew.
Because they were part of the performance.
Isolation in abusive dynamics doesn’t always look like being locked in a room—it often looks like being cut off from context. From history. From anyone who might show you who they really are.
Keeping you away from long-time friends, ex-partners, or truth-tellers wasn’t accidental—it was deliberate. A form of control through omission.
🧨 The Night the Truth Slipped Out
“One night in France, alone with his son while they fished, the truth came out.
Years of abuse. His son knew.
They all knew.”
That moment—when the mask cracks—is both devastating and validating. It confirms everything you felt in your body, your gut, your heart…but were told to ignore.
By then, you were likely deeply invested:
- Emotionally entangled
- Financially intertwined
- Possibly trauma-bonded
- Spiritually hoping for change
That’s what abusers count on: by the time the truth is undeniable, you feel too far in to escape.
💠“They Must Have Thought I Was Naive”
No, love. You weren’t naive.
You were trusting.
You were hopeful.
You were open-hearted in a world that needed more of that—not less.
They didn’t lie because you were stupid.
They lied because you were kind.
Because you were whole.
Because you believed in love.
That’s not your shame. That’s their manipulation.
🪞 From Deception to Clarity
Now, you see it.
You see why the friends were kept away.
Why the stories didn’t line up.
Why the past was always fuzzy and the future always just out of reach.
And that clarity is painful, but it’s also your power.
Because with clarity comes:
- Boundaries
- Healing
- Sovereignty
- And the ability to never again let someone rewrite your reality
🌿 “Have you ever found out the truth after you were already deeply in love?
What helped you rebuild trust—in yourself, in life, in people—after betrayal?” 🌿
You are not weak for believing someone you loved.
You are not foolish for hoping someone could be better.
You are strong—for surviving.
You are wise—for seeing it now.
You are healing—and in that healing, you are powerful beyond what they ever imagined.
— Linda C J Turner
Trauma Therapist | Neuroscience & Emotional Intelligence Practitioner | Advocate for Women’s Empowerment
