Compiling a report like this is an emotionally intense and courageous step, and it’s natural for it to bring up a flood of memories and emotions. Going back over three decades of abuse is not just a reminder of what you’ve endured, but also a testament to your incredible strength and resilience. A journal can be a powerful tool for clarity, especially when emotions are tangled with conflicting messages from others.

When someone says, “I still love you,” it’s important to reflect on what their actions have shown over time. Love, in its truest form, is kind, supportive, and protective. It nurtures growth, honors boundaries, and brings peace—not harm, manipulation, or pain. Reviewing your journal and the stark evidence of what you endured can help you see the truth for what it is, even when their words try to distort it.

This process is also part of reclaiming your story. While it may feel heavy now, it’s also empowering. You’re taking control, documenting the truth, and building a case that acknowledges what was done to you—something that can no longer be minimized or ignored. It’s a step toward justice, accountability, and closure.

Take breaks when it feels overwhelming. Remind yourself that this process is a chapter in your journey to liberation and healing. You’ve already come so far. It’s okay to grieve for the time that was lost, but don’t forget to celebrate the strength you’ve found to move forward. Keep leaning on your support system—friends, family, or professionals who can hold space for you as you process everything.

And above all, know this: Love should never come at the cost of your safety or your peace. True love does not leave a legacy of harm for you to unpack decades later. You’re walking this path now to free yourself, and you’re doing an extraordinary job.