The echo chamber of his control

For years, I lived a life filled with silent suffering, my words unheard, my feelings dismissed, my spirit bruised. I wrote countless letters, pouring my heart onto paper, each word carefully chosen and each plea steeped in vulnerability. I begged—not for grand gestures, but for the smallest breadcrumbs of love and kindness, for tenderness and a trace of softness. Instead, my words were met with harshness, insults, and cruelty. He threw my heartfelt letters away, discarding them as if they were meaningless scraps.

When words failed, his actions spoke volumes. He would retreat to a room, locking himself away, forbidding me from disturbing him. Days would pass in cold silence, my existence ignored, until he reappeared, acting as if nothing had transpired. Any attempt to address the pain, to speak of the void he had created, was strictly forbidden. I was expected to carry on, burying my emotions in the same way he buried my pleas for connection. This cycle repeated itself, an unrelenting rhythm of neglect, particularly on special occasions or before social gatherings, as though to tarnish what should have been moments of joy.… Read More The echo chamber of his control

Existential Crisis

When someone has spent years dodging the law, they may not have given much thought to the bigger questions of life—Why am I here? What is my purpose? What do I want out of life beyond this? Their life choices may have been driven by immediate needs—survival, power, wealth, or status within a criminal network. But once they are caught, the luxury of ignoring these deeper questions is taken away.

For the first time, they may start to reflect on the trajectory of their life, especially when they realize that the path they’ve been on has led to a dead end—literally and metaphorically. They might wonder if all those years of risk and evasion were worth it. Was the thrill of outsmarting the law worth the loneliness, the betrayal, or the potential loss of everything they’ve gained? If they face a long sentence, they may grapple with the fact that their life as they knew it is effectively over.… Read More Existential Crisis