This year I’ve dated more than I probably would have imagined I ever would.Some of it was too soon. Some of it was clumsy. Some of it was simply part of learning how to be human again after decades of abuse. But something unexpected also happened. I met two men who were profoundly different from… Read More When Healing Changes Who You Meet — and How It Feels

This is one of the hardest and most important transitions after long-term abuse.Distrusting calm wasn’t a flaw — it was adaptive. Now your nervous system needs help updating its rules. I’ll explain why calm felt dangerous, then how to retrain trust in it using neuroscience, not positive thinking. 1. Why calm used to feel unsafe (this matters) In abusive environments, calm… Read More Why calm felt dangerous?

Here is a clear, neuroscience-based map you can use in real time when you eventually date.This isn’t about judging people — it’s about listening to your nervous system, which now has much better data than it used to. Green vs Red Nervous-System Signals in Dating (After long-term abuse) 🟢 GREEN SIGNALS These indicate ventral vagal regulation — safety, presence, and choice. 1.… Read More Red Light vs Green Light

During abuse or chronic stress, the nervous system protects you by: Stress hormones like cortisol and adrenaline act like a kind of anesthetic. They keep grief, anger, and loss out of conscious awareness because feeling them would have been unsafe or overwhelming at the time. When calm returns: So emotions that were deferred, not resolved, finally get airtime. This isn’t… Read More 1. Calm removes the “survival anesthesia”

When someone lives for years in an abusive, unpredictable environment, the nervous system adapts for survival, not comfort. 1. Your nervous system was trained for threat, not peace Chronic abuse keeps the brain in sympathetic dominance (fight/flight) or freeze. Over time, calm becomes unfamiliar. The body learns: “Stillness = danger might be coming.” So when calm finally appears, the brain… Read More Why calm can feel unfamiliar (and even unsettling)